There are some really fucked-up people in this world, and that's all I really have to say.

Public entry just because I feel like it. I have my reasons for "feeling like it". XD

I hope you all had a lovely New Year. I rang it in with my beloved, although on New Year's Eve I was dealing with some rather unpleasant things from other people. Backstabbing, for one. A lot of hurt, but Jeremy made the day better. :) New Year's Day was full of even worse bullshit. Let's just say that I found out someone whom I believed I could trust and whom I cared for very much had been telling lies about me behind my back. Needless to say, I went to work that night without much sleep at all and I still feel sick over the whole thing. I'm still hurting, and I want to beat myself in the head for letting myself trust that person, for believing that that person gave a shit about me and my feelings and my friendship.

I pretty much lost my best friend around this time last year--she decided that she was tired of pretending to be happy for me, and she decided she couldn't stick around any longer even though she'd been my best friend for fourteen years. Yes, that still hurts. The irony is that the "friend" I mentioned above told all those lies to her, and she caught him in the lies. I was informed of it, and I honestly do not believe he's sorry for lying about me or hurting me, or lying to her. I think he's sorry that he got caught, and that's it. You see, the two of them apparently have a lot in common, and their relationship was heading towards the "romantic" sort of stage, I guess, but then he lied to her about me. I hope for her sake that she's walked away from him as I have, because he's just not worth it.

There are a couple more people this past year who have apparently decided that I am no longer worth talking to, and don't really reply to anything I have to say. Oh well. I guess I'll move on from that too.

I have reconnected with someone this past year, though, and it has been nice. <33333

And most importantly? Come the end of March, I'll be married to the best, sweetest man in the world. Ever since we became official, it's just been... I can't even describe it. We're so comfortable with one another and it's not like this silly "honeymoon" stage that people talk about. Because we've known each other for so long, he really gets me and I really get him. What we have is precious and beautiful, and I just wish everyone could experience this feeling.

I'm so nervous about moving out of this house. I know I cannot stay here forever but I will miss my Daddy and my sister and Fred (my dog) and Lizzie and Lilly (the cats) and even the goats something fierce. I'll miss venting to my mom about work every morning I come home. I'll miss walking with my sister. I know I'll be in Warner Robins and it's only an hour and fifteen minutes away but I wish we could just live closer. :( Unfortunately, Jeremy is in the Air Force and they require him to live within so many miles from the Air Force Base. It's going to be a big adjustment and I'm probably going to be terribly homesick for a bit, but you know... he'll be there beside me, helping me the whole way. Even though I'm nervous, I'm so excited to be taking this step with him. I know I am exactly where I am meant to be.

May this new year bring happiness to all of you~!

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Sometimes, there just aren't enough words to convey how bad a night at work has been. I'm still exhausted from Tuesday. :( I ran my legs off between my dying breast cancer patient and my patient with pancreatic cancer, whose new PEG tube was pulling back nothing but old, brown blood. Nevermind that she was also throwing up that old, brown blood, and that I had an admission and four other patients to deal with as well. Yes, I left work late. And they wanted me to come in at midnight last night and take a patient in the unit. Yeah, that wasn't happening.

Jeremy came to see me yesterday, though. It made my day. :D

So, since I have finished the VK fanfic and am not really ready to write for FMA Fic Contest again (OMG I have been writing too much FMA lately), I am taking drabble requests! Give me a fandom, a pairing, and a prompt, and I will write a dribble for you. Just please be patient. XD I work the next four days and then have to get ready for Crystal's wedding, so it's going to be nuts here.

You guys should know my fandoms by now. I haven't written final fantasy in forever but I COULD give it a shot. I am new to Black Butler, but I could give that a shot as well. I have written fic for Kingdom Hearts, Inuyasha, Loveless, Fullmetal Alchemist, and most recently, Vampire Knight.

I WILL NOT write fic for the JRock fandom OR the Tokio Hotel fandom. That ship has unfortunately sailed.

If you want to ask about other fandoms, feel free! <3

Yes, this is a public entry.

She never uses livejournal unless I bug her about it. But tonight, after I tried to get in contact with her via email, and after leaving yet another voicemail because she refuses to answer the fucking phone...

I find that she's changed her profile on her LJ, and she's taken me off of her friends list.

Yeah. I don't even know how to respond to that. I guess there's no point.

CH-CH-CH-CHANGES

Hint: Click on the above.

I should have probably put this at my fic LJ, but that would mean crossposting and what-not, so, yeah. XD;;;;;

I am obviously up to my eyeballs with ideas for Tom/Bill, what with the 100 prompts thing and all, so I'm not taking requests for those (sorry, guys :/), buuuut~. I am taking requests for other things because I want to write more for certain fandoms. :) Those fandoms being: Kingdom Hearts, Loveless, and Death Note. I apparently needed a rather large break from JRock because... uhm. I have no desire to write JRock at this point in time. Not that I don't still love them, because I do--I've just run out of steam, guys.

SO~!

Your job is to give me a fandom, a pairing, and a prompt. I will take a word, a phrase, lyrics, anything you like as a prompt. Mainstay pairings are:

Kingdom Hearts: Sora/Riku (I might write Sora/Riku/Kairi--have kinda wanted to for a while but haven't actually been able to do it), Axel/Roxas. However, this doesn't mean that I won't write any other pairing. I also write genfic.

Loveless: Soubi/Ritsuka, Youji/Natsuo, and Kouya/Yamato. Can mix and match, if you persuade me enough. ^_~

Death Note: Mello/Near, Light/L. Am also being tugged into Matt/Mello/Near against my will. ^^;

You can request as much as you like, just remember to be patient with me. XDXDXD

*loves all over the f-list*

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